Wednesday, January 28, 2009
feeling so unmotivated to go for lessons
holiday mood.
not exactly CNY mood though.

i want to live my life to the fullest!
i want to live my life like i'm gonna die tmr.
but how exactly can i achieve that?

what can i do with restrictions?
why do i have to think of others' feeling?
why do i have to be called selfish when i wanna do things my way?
why cant i do the things i like?
how can i be happy?
how can i live my life to the fullest?
how can i enjoy my life?
how do i cherish the time i have?
will i regret when i look back at my life 40 years later?
why rachel likes to bully me?
questions and more questions.

this is my blog.
yet i dont really blog down my deepest inner most feelings.
cos i dont want to answer queries abt it.
cos i dont want to explain things that remind me of unhappiness.
yet at times i wanted ppl to care.
of cos i know some ppl really cared.
sometime i felt that i'm better off being alone
but yet i felt lonely, neglected.
why leh? why like that huh?
why is life so contradicting?
有那么多的感触, 但却不能说出来